and wonderful.
awfully wonderful and wonderfully awful.
all i've done this week is study for my finals (over tomorrow at 10!) and say goodbye to my best friend.
it's funny how you never realize how much someone is a part of your life until they aren't anymore.
when i left for college i remember saying to my two best friends "i don't wanna make new friends" then i bawled on the whole drive home.
the Lord has provided me with some of the best friends I could ever ask for. some of them have just showed up in my life in the last month or so and i am way thankful for them. We experience life together and hurt together and laugh together and are inappropriate together. we dream together (mostly about being married...) and we talk about boys together. and we have some of the most meaningful conversations i've ever had together. it's hard to believe that i've only known these girls (and in some cases, boys) no more than 8 months. not even the gestation period of a baby! (did i just say that?)
we pray together on old main lawn for the Dalai lama while we eat free chipotle burritos. we hammock twice a day everyday. summer will be so hard apart from them.
speaking of the Dalai Lama...
he was on campus today. Rumor has it they're dispersing the sand painting that the monks did this week across Fayetteville. I've been told (but have no proof) that when the monks make these sand-paintings they mutter "mantras" under their breath, these "mantras," i've been told, conjure spirits. not good ones. I have to doubt that the Dalai Lama has the best intentions in the world but he is not of Christ, and i take what he says with a grain of sand (see what i did there? sorry, i'm tired...it's finals week.) peace is wonderful. I am all for peace. but I am for peace under and because of Christ.
the Tibetan monks faith inspires me. I am so impressed by it. To have that much devotion makes me examine my own lifestyle. would i give up my "regular" world, give up my "regular" clothes, and my "regular" friends? i don't know. but i am thankful that I am called by God to be a light in the darkness, and to live among this world until He calls me home. I am thankful that this is not a decision i have to make.
speaking of goodbyes...
I wasn't speaking of goodbyes? well, i am now.
they SUCK. why do i have to be away from people that make my heart so happy?
at least this is not a final goodbye. not a goodbye of "see ya if i see ya." i know that these people are not leaving me forever. we will be reunited soon. if not on a summer road trip, or next fall, we will be reunited in our heavenly home.
i am so overwhelmed with thankfulness that this world is not where it ends.
this is not my home.
"someday I will wake
in a body that won't break
on a ground that doesn't shake
not here.
someday I will live
in a house that's built by hands that hold the world."
"He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away." -Revelation 21:4
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